I can see things and hear things that I know are not there. however based on perceptions I can choose from there to answer or ignore the voices and the people.

Perhapse it is regret. Or perhapse it is sorrow. I dont know I dont feel anything emotionally these days. I bled for others I have shed my tears for many others. So its no suprise I ran out of juice. at the same time however I have found the medium that is judgement.

I can choose to react or simply ignore. I can answer to the call of my name or spout off about how I dont want to converse with even a social wall of a person. Its all based on motive and perception.

Cause and effect plays a small role but I try not to think of the whys simply the what now. if all we ever think about is what if and what then and forget about the what now we will be prepared for a maby and damned to the current. you shouldnt think about how to react in a crash when your standing on a soon to be active train track no?

your world. my world. our world. Its all the same. We all pee in the snow so to speak. its a trash dump past the apple in the tree isnt it? even now I wonder how well on the side of holy I am. perhapse I am not that holy. Who knows you dont. you dont even know who I am. And thats not a shot thats a truth spoken from a dishonest person. But who am I to be judged by you. you are no better and you are sometimes far worse.....

Pucker up for that ass kissing kids. thats how you really get what you want isnt it? not if you can do what I can do with another persons mind. If you can sell ice to an eskamo then you might know how to survive. sometimes even then supply and demand will still kill you really.....